Covered

It is not what I have done, but what He has done.

Confession: Lately, I've been pretty full of myself, since I've been getting into the program of exchange I wanted, and getting a table at a convention. I've been comparing myself to how far I've improved, and comparing my stuff to others and then teetering into depression when I realized that I haven't improved as much as I wanted to in the timespan alotted, and that other people still draw so much better than me. 

These past 2 weeks, I feel like God is reminding me to stay humble. Now not only am I worried about my marks,(exam season haha) and also they lost my contract in the mail for the convention table, so I had to resend, still waiting on it.  It's so easy for God to give, it is even easier for God to take away.  Because who am I? That He should listen to my prayers? I still continue to sin, I still continue to put my priorities above Him. Why should He give me what I want? I don't deserve it.

BUT. He reminds me that He has a plan for me. For each and everyone of us. He has created us to live and abundant life, and it is only through Him that we can do that. All that we have now, it's nothing. I am nothing. It is only when I realize that, that I realize that I have everything, because I have Him. God is everything, and He lives in me. 

Like even Jesus, who was God himself, made himself nothing, and followed His Father's will. Who am I? Why do I put myself up so high. What do I have that is of value, that God doesn't have, that He didn't give to me? God doesn't need to listen to me, He doesn't need me for anything, He doesn't need me to complete His goals. He can choose anybody. I am replaceable. He didn't need to come to Earth, live among men, and die for them. He didn't need to die for me. I didn't do anything for Him. I can't do anything for Him. 


But yet He did. He got whipped, tortured, and carried the cross for me. He starved, He was thirsty, He became human, for me. Yo, this is God. God of the universe. The God who created the world, carved out those oceans, formed those mountains, put the stars into the sky. The very same God, became HUMAN? and DIED? FOR ME.

like wow. why do I put myself first.  



ok.

I just wanted to share my thoughts on humility, since this was supposed to be about that.. sorry I ramble a lot.


Humility, is not putting yourself down. I do that a lot. and then i think wow haha i'm so humble ha.
yea on a scale of 1 being proud, and 10 being humble, i give myself a 15. yea hahaha #HUBRIS.

ok well it is not that. It is listening to others, it is not getting angry after being corrected.  (GUILTY)

Humility is loving others more than you love yourself. It is caring for others. You do not have to think that they are better than you, but you have to recognize that the other person, standing before you, is made by God Himself. God has a plan for that person. God loves them, and died for them. You have to see them through God's eyes. Then, you will see the value in them, and treat them the way that Jesus would treat them.


How would Jesus treat them?
He washed His disciple's stinky feet that's how. 
and He's God.
like what about us then? Why do we put ourselves up so high, like diamonds in the sky? who are we.

ok.

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that was long.
sorry.
just needed to get this out.

Happy Easter and God bless.

God really loves you ok.